2011

04.01.11

That was the day I had cried for so long.

I thought everything would be ok.

I thought you would changed.

I thought we would last for a longer time.

I thought I thought I thought.

I was just a failure.

Stupid idiot.

or what else I can call myself now?

I could do nothing to rescue our relationship.

And maybe,

I was the one who wanna end up all of these earlier.

I thought I could handle it

I thought I could accept it.

u were right,

maybe we shouldn't start this.

you had made a stupid mistake.

and i was stupid too.

when we were backed to friends,

I was so glad,

so glad that we at least not ended up with a quarrel.

and today,

I thought we could meet for the last time as couple,

Because I still have a lot of things wanna tell you,

I still have a lot of gifts wanna give you.

And last year,

I was so excited to buy you my 1st gift,

I thought I could give it to you as a Christmas gift.

Fine, I still could't give you.

I didn't know how long I still needed to wait.

My last dream, my last hope,

I just wanna give you the gift.

05.01.11

I didn't know were you still treating me as your good friend? your normal friend or stranger?

I had asked you bout that,

I just wanna make sure,

but,

end up,

we were just arguing,

And you said

I did not understand you at all,

it hurt me so much,

really.

You said maybe you were just a stranger for me,

WTH?

stranger?!

so now you wanna tell me that the person I loved, I cared, I worried so much last time

is a stranger?!

so stupid.

a stupid excuse maybe.

U said u don't like to chat with sms,

fine,

now I have no right to ask you to chat with me,

you're backed to normal.

So are you happy now?

No need to waste your money.

No need to chat with an annoying person as me.

Is it ok?

Now,

I just want everything for the last time

and after that,

I'll totally forget our relationship.

I promise.

I won't say bout it.

so,

please,

don't let me wait so long.

My last hope to you.

Thanks.

I LOVE YOU, for the last time.